Understanding Fear

It would be a shame if it all fell into place so easily. It would be a real shame if you never had the opportunity to fight for it. It would be a shame if you never had your doubts or moments where you lost all faith in yourself and almost gave up. It would be a shame if your belief wasn’t re-enforced. It would be a shame if you couldn’t test yourself with temptations. It wouldn’t be that much fun if you never fought with the demons in your head.
How will you ever know everything was worth it if you didn't go through all the pain and loss of faith and all the people discouraging you? How will you ever know this was all you ever wanted if you never had the opportunity to see what you could do to stand by it? How will you ever know you have what you wanted if you were always happy with what was given to you? How will you know if what you have is what you wanted unless you’ve had to fight for it?
So when you are in moments of doubt about doing something that might not turn out right, don’t be afraid of the pain, welcome the fear of the pain, because looking back at the fear of pain is the only thing that will tell you later that it was all worth it.

Don't lose faith.

It’s life. Things like this happen. Don’t lose faith. Everybody has a life. Millions of them have a hard life. Never lose faith in the fact that it will turn out right. We are now in a stage in life where we excel at one point of time and all of us who excel there enter a common place where we have to slog it out. Then, we don’t excel anymore. We begin to lose hope. How are we not the best if we were the best? How are we not the same as we were some time back? If we were good, why are we not good anymore? Never lose faith. Things will work out the way you want them to. They will be good. And you will go through a lot of hardships in life. You will be struck hard, you will fall. It doesn’t matter how fast you get up or how hard you strike back. The fact that you don’t lose hope matters. You have to hold on. Give it a good fight. Giving it a fight doesn’t mean standing against someone else. It means standing up for yourself. Everybody does that.

All that bullshit.

And then life gets monotonous. So monotonous, even the monotony seems monotonous. And you reailse you’re still doing what’s become monotonous. One of the things you always hope will help you discover something about yourself and it will change your life in some way or another. But it hasn’t done that in the past. It still remains monotonous. You see the same faces again, do the same stuff again, feel like you’re taken for granted the same way. No good feelings. Nothing seems to be coming out of it. You’re still stuck in life. Not moving forward. Not gaining anything at all. You feel like changing something. You feel like shouting at people. Doing something you’ve never done before. Doing something you always wanted to do.

Not gossiping. Trying to set limits while you’ve been telling yourself all you life there are no limits to anything. The sky is the limit. Fight with a friend. Not be someone everyone is concerned about. Talk to that girl. Have a life changing experience. Do something worth it. Do something that elates you; that numbs your mind. Have your own life. Have people who understand you. Not the ones who expect you to live the way they expect you to. And manage to keep all of that in your own little mind and still stay calm.

Run into someone who broke your heart and still smile. Pretend to have gotten over it. Have something new to wait for. Not remain safe. Ruin something you want to repair. Not fool with something you don’t care about. Surrender. Kick away the pride. Look for help. Cry; get down on your knees, pray. Wish everything changed suddenly. Wait for your angel. Find something that’s not your own and make it your own. Experience life. Avoid hypocrites. Love what you do.

And all that bullshit.